The shirt

While going through some things this past weekend I found a shirt.  I bought this shirt around this time a year ago to announce to all of our friends and family that we were expecting our second child.  Unfortunately, the shirt arrived the day after our second miscarriage was confirmed.  I didn't even open the package, I told Ben to just put it somewhere that I couldn't ever find it.  (Turns out Ben isn't the best hider). 

When I found the envelope I had completely forgotten about the shirt and didn't even know what it was.  I tore off the tape and immediately knew what I had just found.  The tears came right away.  At first I didn't even know why I was crying.  I dealt with these feelings a year ago when it all happened.  Then I realized I wasn't crying because I was sad, but because I was happy.  Benson could finally wear his shirt.  It isn't for the reason we originally thought nor do we know when he will officially be a Big Brother, but what I do know is, he will definitely be the BEST big brother around.